Change is in the air.

In the past week, we have made some really big purchases for Baby Odin, including a down payment on the crib (on layaway at Fletcher's) and an awesome deal on an Ergo carrier. All of this shopping and decision making has made me a bit anxious. It is all becoming more and more real. Making the big purchases has made me realize how close it is. As exciting as it is, becoming a mommy sounds scary! It is so much responsibility and I don't want to do a bad job. Odin deserves the best in life. 

Liam has found out that more than likely he will not be going to graduate school due to some funding issues, which is fine. Although exciting, we are not sure we will end up ultimately. For all I know, by September, I could be in California. We will not move out of the area before then because of baby, and if we DO leave the area, it will likely be Portland. But, it is very difficult to make plans when you don't have plans ;) 

I don't think I have told everyone my plans yet officially, but next term I will not be going back to school. Which means I have one week of classes plus one paper to write before I am done. I will still be taking choir, so I will have something to do with my life, but I am getting excited about staying home.

Speaking of staying home, yesterday I was laying in bed while Odin twisted and danced. When I started talking to him, he stopped. Then when I stopped talking, he started moving again. It was such a fun bonding moment. It made me think about when he gets here and how excited I am for those moments where it is just us snuggling and talking in bed before we face the day. This plus looking at the stroller we like made me so excited to spend time with him alone everyday, and made me really imagine what life would be like if I don't go back to school. Gotta admit, imagining all those memories and moments I could miss out on, makes being a stay-at-home mom very appealing. 

I am trying not to think so far into the future. I have always been the type to plan for up to YEARS in advance. With all these unknowns and changes, I would go crazy if I was trying to do that. I think about a couple weeks in advance, but really I only plan about 48 hours in advance. 

Trying to relax for you, Buggie! Trying to stay calm through all the madness. I love you!

Here is a photo of our crib. Hardwood, solid. Awesome!