What to do with my life?

I still don't know what I am going to do with my life after Bug comes. We have no certainty we will even be in the Eugene area. But, for now, we are assuming we will be. I had thought I would probably start taking online classes at OSU (they have full degrees online, my major being one of them.) As I am getting further into this term, though, I am feeling like I might really regret that. 


I am enjoying Gospel choir a lot. I am also really enjoying my classes (both classes from my major) and the discussions in the class room. Because college has never really been about the degree to me, it has more been the experience and so I can say I did it, I think I wouldn't have much motivation for online schooling. I also feel like I would regret not continuing with Gospel as it is not something I can do forever, it's a college thing. Of course, this is all before I have held that baby in my arms and I could potentially never want to leave him or her. 


I guess, right now- Liam and I are assuming I will be going back (to UO) part time Fall 2012, and full time Winter 2013. But I am still reserving the right to not go back at all if I want. The only thing that gets in the way of this right now is childcare. I am having a really hard time figuring out how child care will all work out. I know my mom would be available some to watch the baby, I also know there is potential that Liam and I could work our schedules around each other and he could be home with baby some times. But, odds are, we will need to hire someone eventually. I was a nanny, so I know there are some great ones out there ;) But there are some crazies out there. The idea just makes me anxious, and I haven't even held the baby in my arms yet.


Maybe I will find Mary Poppins :)

Actually. The more I think about it, she isn't up to my standards....magic lady who lies to kids, brings them to strangers houses, and works to impress a homeless man? She has a temper and on multiple occasions- puts down the children. Yikes. Nope. I am never leaving my kids. If you can't even trust Julie Andrews, WHO CAN YOU TRUST?